Where Am I ??

The Way i live my life, is not the way a normal huan being do
When i go back, i see nothing in my life other than only one thing
the only thing i have is more than enough to have the best of life

But again if i go back to the same period of time, and come back to the present
What have i gained, and what have i lost ???
i am thoughtless, because i have lost myself. i know its very easy to say " come back to the normal and find urself"

But, is it easy to do so ??? no !!! not at all.....
I can't do it. What did i do ?? did i deserve this ???? these are not the questions, i ask....

Only one question coes......... WHO AM I ???